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(no subject) [May. 24th, 2007|10:19 pm]
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face down in the dirt she says this doesnt hurt [May. 12th, 2007|06:43 am]
[music |justify-red jumpsuit apparatus]

okay so this is my dream...
i was walking down a sidewalk with fields and trees and a street on one side
and chris was with me
all of a sudden someone starts throwing golf balls at me
its todd and brent campbell
i hide behind chris and he protects me
and we start running
and were laughing and having fun
and we get to this clearing and there are like a ton of people there
among them chris's parents and joline
we are exhausted so we lay down
and i'm laying there with my head on his stomach
and i see joline and i feel really bad
so for some reason i say lets get up and get a drink
because i know that if we do we'll at least run into joline and talk to her
well we do and as we do it chris ditches me for joline
and i'm just like "i hate you joline"
and then i'm like in jolines place
i see her and i say
"the only reason i got up is because i felt sorry for you"
and i dont remember much more...
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i'm bigger than my body gives me credit for [May. 10th, 2007|05:41 pm]
[music |collide-krystal meyers]

i was walking home yesterday and i decided...
what is the point of seeing anything if you cant remember it?
what is the point of looking at something if you cant replicate it?
i want to actually see things..
not just look at them
well thats my new thing that i'm gonna try

by the way krystal meyers rocks even for a chick...
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(no subject) [May. 8th, 2007|09:59 pm]
[music |sympathy for the martyr-straylight run]

you know what...
things are actually going good
i feel like a good person
sometimes i miss being friends with amy and eileen
but i love my life right now
every breath is worth it
every day i hate school but it's worth it
i love emelyn baker
i wish she knew how much i adore her
i wish i could be exactly the person that she wants me to be
so that she would like me more
i know i'm annoying to most people
but i guess i'm beyond caring
things are looking up
me and faith had a long talk tonight about nothing in particular
i love that girl
she is so inspiring
and i wish i could be that cute
i love track this year
i like being able to hang out with everyone
i really like the thompson boys
chris is so smart
and i like to mess with him
and alex is just funny
it amazes me how good they are at disc
i wish i enjoyed disc like them
something inside of me is so bubbly right now
even though i didn't like the play at first
it ended off on a good note
i'm so glad that i'm friends with sarah baxter
and michelle and bryce
and i can appreciate emmy and katie o
even if they did get on my nerves a little
they are good at acting and dancing
they are probably the best dancers there
i just need to work on taking criticism
speaking of which
i think me and ben are working out too
he invited me to a bonfire
even though i couldnt come it made me happy
life is so wonderful

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lets get together and start a commotion... [Aug. 14th, 2006|10:47 am]
[mood |okaysome good some bad]
[music |the notion-fm static]

wow...things seem so good right now...
uhhh...caleb is so great...
the only thing is jaimie
i dont get it
so many guys like her...she is amazing
shes beautiful and nice and funny and so outgoing...
and she knows she could have almost any guy she could want
but why does she like the guys that like me???
this has happened three times
and now caleb
okay so i liked brandon and she made me feel like crap the whole time i was dating him...
but i never liked AJ and i never had any interest in him
even when jill was trying to make me guess who at powersource liked me
i told her the only people (that i was friends with ) that i would totally not ever date for sure was colin and AJ...
but caleb i do like
i want to tell the whole world about what an amazing fantastic smart funny wonderful radtabulous guy he is
and i know that just because i liked him first doesnt mean i have a claim on him or anything
and i know that i would not have talked to him nearly as much if it wasnt for jaimie
but like eileen said
when i thought that jaimie had more of a chance with him than i did
i was so happy for her...
why cant she just be happy for me you know...
and maybe i am way off base because i have never heard it from him that he likes me...
just everyone else...hmmmmm...
i mean i do feel sorry for her...
but she told me that shes already been asked to homecoming in durand four times
shes only lived there for like three weeks
uhhhhhhhhh...whatever...i hate highschool drama...
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there's no easy answer [Aug. 10th, 2006|11:35 am]
[mood |excitedexcited]
[music |more than a revolution-eleventy seven]

so im about to go to see wicked with caleb in about a half an hour
im really nervous
especially about my skirt
i hope its not too short
but its the only real dressy thing i have
everything in life is going good right now
except the whole jaimie situation
caleb even likes me
or so ive heard
but then again i think about jaimie
she has so many new friends at durand
i just hope she doesnt change...
it kinda sucks that after everything that happened this summer amy is still her best friend
geez...this sounds so immature...
well no matter how this sounds...im still in an amazing mood...
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were the things that go bump in the night that you cant see [Apr. 29th, 2006|09:15 pm]
[mood |jubilantlight]
[music |caeser-4th avenue jones]

uhhh...i just went to walmart to get the new taking back sunday cd...
and they definatley didnt have it
that makes me sad
and i was getting amys birthday present...and i was looking for something with jasmine on it but all they had was like belle and cinderella and sleeping beauty
i think thats funny
the wedding was amazing....
i felt so much better after it...but i stayed home friday to sleep
i really really really really wnat to go to camp
uh i wish i could relive that week
it was so fun...
playing volleyball with jon and sarah stewart
pogo sticking
joey and terry who i dont even know jumping in the pool
me and amanda hanging out at the lake
that awesome merry go round which we took a ride on after every meal
and when faith fell off of it
whoever found that cool turtle
dylan trying to teach me the heel toe
subway on the way home...and gino and justin got haircuts while we ate
singing shes the blade to myself
this is probably getting old...but i never want to forget it
maybe the drivers ed teacher will get pregnant
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maybe....we were made, we were made for each other [Mar. 28th, 2006|10:15 pm]
[mood |energeticenergetic]
[music |kill the messenger]

....i am so excited for this thursday!
i dont think ive ever been this excited for an incorparated ever...
ever since relient k
seeing matt on that stage singing his heart out
which is amazing
i want to secretly be a rock star
singing in a church bands pretty far off
but its a start
and singing with jon...who has a gorgeous voice and more presence on stage than any band i have ever seen live
plus chad is speaking and he is just amazing
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(no subject) [Jan. 12th, 2006|05:02 pm]
[mood |chipperchipper]
[music |doa-foo fighters]

today was a good day........
i dont know why it just was.........
in bio cj was saying to everyone that i was pregnant
and steven started it
but im not sure why
but thats not cool........
i have no idea what this whole post was to be about
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ill swear to shake it up if you swear to listen [Dec. 31st, 2005|08:58 pm]
[mood |draineddrained]
[music |time to dance-PANIC! at the disco]

today was fun...
i went to belvideire with bub
it was fun talking to jordan and steven and bub
the 1A posse
they are a funny bunch
tyler took my sketch pad and was like look at all this cool stuff i drew
hes got some crazy curls
hunter was at the tournament
it was weird seeing him...hes gotten so big
but still a little kid...
bubs about double his weight
but next week kcs coming down
its gonna be so weird and awkward since i havent seen him in like four years but whatever..............

YES 1000!!!
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