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in your heart know that im with you all along [Dec. 13th, 2005|09:42 pm]
[mood |weirdweird]
[music |amber pacific- gone so young]

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart you know that I'm with you all along

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you were the one...

...Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight...


Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know
I'm in your heart tonight...
I'm in your heart tonight.

i dont care if you hate guitars or emo or even music...
if you dont like this song, you suck...and you prolly have no emotion
this is gonna be like my wedding song

i went to amandas today
it was fun we watched a funny movie
forgot what it was called....
but anthony and amanda were kinda fighting but not really about breanne
and he was saying that no girls like him except tiffany
and he always gets screwed over
because he like some girl and she just led him on because she never even liked him...she just acted like it or something....
but that really pissed me off, cuz hes talking about leading someone on
when he knows i think hes hot but he knows i dont have a chance with him and he puts his arm around me and says
"amanda remember when i liked jen but then got screwed over..."
and hes talking about getting screwed over when amanda...whose boy left her for another girl!!!
i wanted to scream................!!!
and im freaking out because i dont have any christmas presents yet

and if you guys can go to the all nighter the 21st let me know...its gonna rock!!!
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and i'll pin it all on you, after all youve been put through [Dec. 8th, 2005|09:06 pm]
[mood |enthralledhappy and cute]
[music |sadie-alkaline trio]

ive kinda been falling out these last few weeks
school has so obviously been a waste of time...
in the past week ive learned probably nothing new in any of my classes
except art...we learned how to blend acrylics on canvas with water
everything is becoming reverse...
faith and stacy just pretty much ignore me
not that i mind that much
but you know it still kind of hurts
i always used to be like them...and im talking like two weeks ago
but now i just wanna get out of everywhere that i am
like church...i love to worship and listen...but as soon as the social part kicks in...i hate it...i just want to leave...
im really glad that im friends with jordan again
hes so cool and very calm
although i do wish that amanda would admit that she likes him
i mean seriously...
the dance dance revolution parties are amazing...
i love to ddr
its so fun
i think ben is way better than we couldve imagined though....
like anthony good
like amazing...but he has ddr extreme
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(no subject) [Nov. 21st, 2005|03:43 pm]
[mood |recumbentrecumbent-dk what this means.?]
[music |private eye-alkaline trio]

wow...its been forever since ive updated this thingy
i actully kind of like freshman year
i dont know
our dance dance revolution parties are fun
and then making new friends with old friends
and i guess we added amanda to our little ring of love
shes cool and something new
i cnat wait until wrestling season actully starts
i heart wrestling
its so awesome
yeah...i love it
yeah..and plain white t's concert is this weekend
i cnat wait because i want to see justin there and be like
yeah....i still go to concerts
im done
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i took this way too far farther than it should have ever went [Oct. 12th, 2005|08:29 pm]
[mood |happydoing just fine]
[music |hurry up and live-just left]

i just realized how much i truly adore just left
they are an awesome band
but it sucks that i cnat listen to them all the time

i hate the sophomore volleyball team
they are so mean
even when they win they still are so crappy to us
but i guess i should just give it up
im reading this really good book
you should pick it up
its called..............the bible
but seriously you should pick it up
it was written by like the most amazing people ever
but im reading this other really awesome (and funny) book
called "wake up and smell the pizza"
its so halarious that i cant even describe it
its sort of like a clean daria humor
its so great....but its about God and living a pure life
so if your scared to be anywhere near COOL,
then you shouldnt read it
but if you want to be cool then you should
im so happy right now
im just thinking
we just lost to pecatonica
not that theyre terrible but we can and shouldve so crushed them
but yeah
we just lost but im thinking about eileen and im happy
shes such a good friend (and im guessing youll probably read this....so just so you know....this isnt supposed to be sucking up...im just saying what im thinking)
but yeah shes the only one of my friends that actually will come to church and not just for the party
she comes to the not party too
but yeah...if your my friend and then you should come to the not party aka link
but really it is a party because im there
no just kiddign
it is really fun
we get to hang out and sing and talk about God and laugh and what not
i realized tonight how smart and funny katie is
she should be in the advertising business or something
she made all those signs for the lockers and i was like katie this is so smart and halarious
and what she said about the chipmunk and melissa
that was amusing
even though it did make fun of her and was kind of mean.....

ill leave you with this

just left baby ohhh yeah

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a spaceman that cant get high [Sep. 9th, 2005|10:25 am]
[mood |happyjust happy]
[music |jacks mannequin-dont know the name]

i havent updated in forever but the only person who really does is lauren
i cant wait til homecoming and i have a date
going with brandon
im excited but i will be seriously mad if amy doesnt come
oh yeah...im class president
that makes me happy, but i have no idea how to build a float

im ready im ready so dont stop
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(no subject) [Aug. 10th, 2005|09:12 pm]
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[music |csi ny]

right now i am just dying to be somebody.
everyone it seems has a story.
im reading this book called "nothing feels good: punk rock, teenagers and emo" and there are so many good stories.
i guess i just wish i had problems
people have problems with their parents, i dont
people have problems with money, i dont
people have problems with their boyfriends/girlfriends, i dont
i have a seemingly perfect life and its tearing me apart
you see, what effects other people doesnt effect me
im willing to forgive and forget
and what rolls off other peoples shoulders kills me
and im dying to be an 'emo kid'
i want to be apart of that scene
but the fact of the matter is im not
emo means emotional and i dont seem to be that
i feel just like another body walking around
and if im not emotional i cant even think let alone write emo
so after all this i guess i do have one big problem
and thats with myself
dont get me wrong
im not ashamed of myself, but i just wish i could figure myself out
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see what you can do when you step into the circle and move like we do [Aug. 3rd, 2005|10:06 pm]
[mood |blahblah]
[music |watch the sky-somthing corporate]


1. lance armstrong
2. muhammad ali
3. cael sanderson
4. misty mae
5. pastor chad
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you can breathe now....but the air is running out [Aug. 2nd, 2005|05:43 pm]
[mood |sadthis makes me sad]
[music |jacks mannequin-MFEO/you can breathe]


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(no subject) [Jul. 30th, 2005|12:58 pm]


ecspecially the bassist (far right)

hes sexy

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all the letters of the alphabet could never spell it out [Jul. 24th, 2005|10:17 am]
[mood |thirstythirsty]
[music |emery-the terrible secret]

warped tour totally rocked!!!
so many awesome bands...
the matches
motion city soundtrack
fall out boy
the starting line
relient k
i cant even explain how much fun i had
so many emo hotties in one place
i got pictures with relient k
and the matches
and of everyone else
amy...i have your shirt
its pink and it has a heart and a needle and thread on it
i got it signed too
i love my new matches hoodie
but it sucks because i cant wear it until after the summer
i was seriously on some kind of high from jumping around
and being pushed
and being sweaty
we are going again next year

"you guys go to warped tour?"
*high fives*
"are you from far away?"
"winnebago....its by rockford"
*dumb look*
"im from indiana"
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